I met someone a year ago and didn’t think much of it. I do remember thinking that this wouldn’t be the only encounter I had with this person. But, then again, I didn’t think much of it. About one year later, this person came back into my life. It was crazy how it happened and I can’t even explain it but it happened and it worked and it was right. But then it turned out that it actually wasn’t working and it wasn’t right. And the only reason I can give it is time. It was time. It is time. Time is the problem. It wasn’t the right time. But just because it’s not the right time now doesn’t mean it won’t be the right time tomorrow or next week or in 3 months or next year or in 5 years. I have this feeling that I can’t put into words but I know that it’s there and that it’s a feeling I’ve never had. And that makes me feel like maybe I’m just making it all up. Like this isn’t real and nothing happened. But I feel it. I can’t explain it and I don’t think I’m ready for it…and there’s where time comes in again.
Feeling vulnerable now because this isn’t like me…..bye.
I really was going to write something deep and thoughtful because I do have a lot to say, but writing it down doesn’t change anything and I’m just in one of those moods.
PREFACE
When I say “haters”, I mean it very literally: People who hate.
CONFUSED
I will never understand why people feel the need to use “gay”, “fag”, “faggot”, etc. in their everyday language. I guess I don’t understand this because I know they use it along with all of its negative connotations. When I hear a guy call another guy a fag, they’re doing it as in insult, therefore implying that person is gay. And if that is an insult, they are also implying it is not okay to be gay.
So, apparently, people seem to have a real problem with allowing people to get married. And by people, I mean people who are gay, because, yes, they are people. Uneducated, ignorant, and closed-minded people believe that allowing gay marriage will destroy marriage, cause outbursts of our youth, and lead to people marrying dogs. NUMBER ONE: if anyone, anywhere tries to tell me that gay marriage will destroy the “sanctity” of marriage, allow me to direct you the divorce rate of the United States, top of the world, people.
“Were you born a bigot? Or did you kind of just..grow into it?” –Kathy Griffin
Love is Love. I don’t care who you are.
If you love someone and decide that you actually want to spend your whole life with them, YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO SO. And the people of America SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO VOTE ON THAT. Let’s say I want to marry this guy. But, before I am allowed to marry him, I have to get the approval of people who know nothing about me, about my soon-to-be husband, or about our love. I wouldn’t be very happy knowing these people have a say in whether or not I can marry him.
If you haven’t realized by now, anyone identifying themselves as homosexual is treated as a SECOND CLASS CITIZEN. I’m not sure how we went from black people having to attend separate schools from white people, to not using skin color as a determinant of equality, to using SEXUALITY as a determinant of equality. I don’t think I will ever understand the hatred and bigotry expressed by so many people in this country, in this world.
But I know one thing: if you have the audacity to say that it is wrong to be gay, or you use hateful, ignorant words towards people who are gay, I will also assume that you feel the same bigoted way about me, for not being a White Male, the majority.
The fact that I am a woman and I am biologically and mentally and physically and sexually attracted to males has absolutely nothing to do with anyone else’s approval, just as the fact that there are men who are biologically and mentally and physically and sexually attracted to males, and women who are biologically and mentally and physically and sexually attracted to females, HAS ABSOLUTELY NO NEED FOR YOUR APPROVAL, YOUR HATEFUL THOUGHTS, OR A PLACE ON ANY BALLOT IN THIS WORLD.
WHO WE LOVE IS NOT UP FOR A VOTE.
Love everyone.
P.S…..If you are totally supporting gay marriage, don’t you think getting married before gay marriage is legalized nationwide is the EPITOME of fighting for something but not standing for it?????
HMM. Think. Be progressive. Be kind. Love.
